Song I’ve been working on🎶

I am very shy when it comes to singing. I am secretly glad that no one reads my blog anymore. Only those that are super close to me know about this blog… I didn’t  want to forget working on this song. I normally just play guitar, but I have been trying to challenge myself and I am trying to learn piano a little bit. So I wanted to document me stepping out on a ledge and trying something new. I do mess up in the videos, but I am a pretty busy mom and so I normally only get a minute or two by myself here and there. And I wanted to document my progress. Music is sunshine for me. So those minutes I get bring happiness to my soul. 🌻 
 

Football is over 🥺🥺😭

 

It is always hard when a football season ends when you don’t win that gold ball. It is especially hard when your son is graduating this year and won’t ever play football again in high school, if ever again…🥺😢😭 I. Can’t. Deal. With. My. Son. Growing. Up…

This was the last time that I hugged my son after a high school football game. That was hard for me. 💔

JT had an amazing game. He went HARD all night. He never gave up and seriously had the heart of a lion!!❤️

I am so proud to have such an amazing son. I am so glad this isn’t the end and that we get to move on to wrestling! JT has a HUGE shot at being a state champion this year in wrestling. (He is that good) Bring on wrestling mom mode!!

I have to say, I wasn’t ready for this boy. I was soooo young when I had this boy and I finally knew what love was. The moment they placed him in my arms I was speechless. My heart exploded into a thousand pieces and I’ll never get them back... They belong to each and every one of my children. 

I absolutely love being a mom. The moment I became a mom, I lost myself. I quit doing the things I thought I loved because I now truly knew what I loved and I wanted to be the best mom…

I am not the best mom. I am far from it. I have made so many mistakes. Especially with JT. I pray and hope he forgives me someday when he holds his first child in his arms an realizes he doesn’t know what he is doing either.

I just hope he knows as he moves on soon that I will always hold him in my heart and my arms if he needs. I would do anything for this boy that is now a very handsome, smart, strong, funny, determined and hardworking young man. 

I am his number one fan and will always be…

“Slow down. Won’t you stay here a minute more? I know you wanna walk through that door. But it’s all too fast. Let’s make it last a little while. I pointed to the sky and now you wanna fly. I am your biggest fan. I hope you know I am…but do you think you can somehow..slow down?”

Slow down bud. You’re taking my heart with you and I don’t know if I am ready.