Song I’ve been working on🎶

I am very shy when it comes to singing. I am secretly glad that no one reads my blog anymore. Only those that are super close to me know about this blog… I didn’t  want to forget working on this song. I normally just play guitar, but I have been trying to challenge myself and I am trying to learn piano a little bit. So I wanted to document me stepping out on a ledge and trying something new. I do mess up in the videos, but I am a pretty busy mom and so I normally only get a minute or two by myself here and there. And I wanted to document my progress. Music is sunshine for me. So those minutes I get bring happiness to my soul. 🌻 
 

Football is over 🥺🥺😭

 

It is always hard when a football season ends when you don’t win that gold ball. It is especially hard when your son is graduating this year and won’t ever play football again in high school, if ever again…🥺😢😭 I. Can’t. Deal. With. My. Son. Growing. Up…

This was the last time that I hugged my son after a high school football game. That was hard for me. 💔

JT had an amazing game. He went HARD all night. He never gave up and seriously had the heart of a lion!!❤️

I am so proud to have such an amazing son. I am so glad this isn’t the end and that we get to move on to wrestling! JT has a HUGE shot at being a state champion this year in wrestling. (He is that good) Bring on wrestling mom mode!!

I have to say, I wasn’t ready for this boy. I was soooo young when I had this boy and I finally knew what love was. The moment they placed him in my arms I was speechless. My heart exploded into a thousand pieces and I’ll never get them back... They belong to each and every one of my children. 

I absolutely love being a mom. The moment I became a mom, I lost myself. I quit doing the things I thought I loved because I now truly knew what I loved and I wanted to be the best mom…

I am not the best mom. I am far from it. I have made so many mistakes. Especially with JT. I pray and hope he forgives me someday when he holds his first child in his arms an realizes he doesn’t know what he is doing either.

I just hope he knows as he moves on soon that I will always hold him in my heart and my arms if he needs. I would do anything for this boy that is now a very handsome, smart, strong, funny, determined and hardworking young man. 

I am his number one fan and will always be…

“Slow down. Won’t you stay here a minute more? I know you wanna walk through that door. But it’s all too fast. Let’s make it last a little while. I pointed to the sky and now you wanna fly. I am your biggest fan. I hope you know I am…but do you think you can somehow..slow down?”

Slow down bud. You’re taking my heart with you and I don’t know if I am ready.

Richardson party 🎉

 We had a party at Jon’s parents yesterday. We all dressed up.  We had dinner, games, dessert and loads of fun!! It was a fun night with everyone. I can’t remember the last time I had my hair in two braids… I looked like I was 10. 🤣 We had “kid rock” or 70s smoker😂, a farmer, a “hot ghost” (that had to borrow my intimates🤣), a soccer player, Mike Alstott, a zombie, a boxer and a flying squirrel… we are a weird bunch, but we love each other..💕 Also, I don’t love that I am one of the short ones in the pictures now…🤨

Halloween 🎃

We had our annual party at my moms. We had dinner, donuts, piñata, and costume contest. The littles wanted to be a football player and cheerleader. My little cheerleader loved that I was a cheerleader with her. I still had my old cheer sweater from high school…We had a fun night!! Jon came as soon as football practice was over. He was at meetings all day, so it was nice to see him before he left for work tonight…🥺

My older kids had friends and practices… so we partied without them. 🎉 

 

Sad night for my soccer girls!

Avery and Evannas number one fans!!

              My sweet girls after their loss…🥺😢😭

My Avery and my Evanna had a tough loss tonight in the playoffs. We ended the half with 2 goals (1 called back) and Showlow 0!! We played AMAZINGLY!! In the last 10 minutes of the second half, Showlow scored twice winning the game and bringing our season to an end for this year. 

Both girls will be back next year, but it was a tough loss. It was so cold 🥶. My toes are still frozen as I write this. Avery headed the ball several times during this game…it must have felt like an ice block hitting her head. Poor girl. She played amazing, they both played well all season! I am their number ☝️ fan!!! On to high school basketball! Bring the heat girls!! My little beasts!

Jonathan

 I have to brag on my husband. He is the head coach for our high school football team this year. It has been a challenge and also an honor for him. Coaching takes a lot of time away from our family, but I can honestly say I have loved him coaching this year!! I feel like I get to help and be apart of it and I enjoy watching Jon coach and get fired up. Especially when I get to see him coach J.T..

Jon is so loving and kind. He is the most honest person I have ever met. Anyone that knows him would say he is honest and a straight up good guy. He has always been a physical guy. He is strong and hardworking. He is tough as nails and yet can be so gentle and caring when he needs to be. He can be infuriating with his teasing (I secretly love it 🥰). He is funny, thoughtful, selfless, handsome as hell and he’s mine! He chose me - and I chose him. And we choose each other every day. I thank God everyday for a man that loves me like he does. 

I just needed to say how my heart feels… Or else it would have exploded.💗 I am proud to call him my husband. And I can’t imagine life without him. How would I sleep if I couldn’t lay on his chest and hear his heart beating? How could I smile if he wasn’t there to drive me crazy with his teasing and inappropriate things he says to embarrass me in front of people? How could I love if my heart was gone? My heart would truly be gone if he wasn’t here. He has my whole heart for my whole life and forever and then some! How could I not? He not only loves me at my best, but he loves me at my weakest and at my worst…he’s pretty much the best. Even if he hates taking pictures and sometimes looks mean at me when I sneak a picture in.😂

Hey babe, I like your soul!! (If you haven’t listened to soul by Lee Brice, do it. It’s a song that Jon plays for me.❤️. So it’s now added to our playlist of “our songs”)